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for all the days, weeks, months and years we’ve been together, I can totally admit that you’re my “best friend”. But, what do we really mean when we say  “best friend”?  is it someone we can talk to when we’re sad, happy or alone? is that best friend the one who can keep your most darkest secret and still accepts you for who you are? Well, in my case, that’s not what’s my “best friend” is. yes, she maybe there when I cried, but does she really understand the reason behind it? She maybe the one I could always talk to when I’m alone but, does she really care at all? This so called “best friend” of mine is one of the important person in my life. She’s there since I was gr. 1. and, look at I am now, I’m a 2nd yr. student. Yes, she maybe called “loyal” but, what’s that for? She doesn’t understand that at all. She’s 11 and I’m 13. Although, there’s a gap. We treated each other equally. Totally like we’re sisters.:) Until, this boy came. The boy she really have gone crazy about(until now). This boy is a “bad boy”. Yeah. True. He has so many addictions in life. He drinks alcohol. He smoke. He go out late at night and go home 12 in the midnight. But, he go to school. Unbelievable? Right.:) Instead of those addictions he have. He still have the guts to go to school. And, hey, let me remind you, this boy is just 14 or 15 yrs. old. And,my “best friend “was just 11. I don’t know if she fell in love or it’s just an insanity she feel whenever that guy is around. My “best friend” really likes him. She really adore that guy. It’s like, every time we talk, she always say his name. But, guess what, this guy really don’t like her. As much as I don’t like him for my “best friend”. But, he’s always visiting my “best friend” every night. Until I felt like, something’s wrong. Feels like my “best friend” has fell into a trap. A trap she can never let go of. Unless she chose to. But, she still chose that guy she really love. Even though she knows that,that guy don’t like him. She really don’t care at all! WTH! It comes out that, that guy means a lot to her than what our friendship is. That guy whom she had only knew for about 3-4 mnths. She never really knew what friendship is all about. Now, she had lost my trust as she tell lies about me, and, people think that I’ve been a bad influence to that “best friend” bec. I have a connection about  that guy he like(1st yr. classmate). She never deserve to be called “best friend”. Now. I have let go of her. At first, I thought, I couldn’t. But, now, I realized, I could be happy without YOU  in my life. I’m contented with what I have. And, what I have let go of. Now, I think, it’s better to stay this way. Be with the one who really loves you and cares for you. People who wouldn’t betray you and will be with you with every accomplishments you made. Good bye my “best friend”. You’re just a PAST now in my life. And, I know there’s a reason why you didn’t come it up to my present and future. Thanks for the childhood memories. Thanks for the memories that made me wept and laugh. I’m not going to miss you anymore. You’re not worth it. Tears that I have wept are enough. The TRUST that was LOST and never was FOUND by YOU. Now, I really know who I am for you. And, I think, that’s all I’ve got to be in your life. Goodbye and thank you. God bless you all the way.

-guys, choose wisely when it comes to having a “best friend”. It’s not about how long you’ve been together, but, it’s about how you treasure and love each other. FRIENDSHIP has no BETRAYALS involved. FRIENDSHIP is friendship. That’s the way it is. but, remember, even if you lose your “best friend” there’s still Jesus. who never leaves and forsakes us. God bless. Thanks for the patience of reading this blog. Hope you’ve learned something from it.
T.S.!

I know myself as an ugly, not smart, fat and so useless girl. “There’s an improvement for everything.” My friends and family members always say that to me. Improve,improve,improve. Well, i think I can. but, I think it’s not worth it. Changing myself  won’t help me figure out who the real me is. I think I’m just so imperfect. So, I think, I won’t improve anymore. I’ll just be happy for who I am right now. Maybe, someday, these skills will be the reason for my success.:)

Trust is not easy to have. Yet it is so easy to lose. You should take care of this once you’ve had it. Or else, you’re going back to the starting point. And, starting over is not easy. Trust is like gold. If you don’t take care of it. I t will be lost. Maybe, you can find it. Or maybe, not. But, one thing’s for sure. Trust is something you cannot buy. You cannot steal. But, once you’ve had it. Make sure. You’ll take care of it.

The best section ever! The best set of classmates. In this section,you don’t have to be fake. You just need to show who you are and they’ll humbly accept you. Even the weirdest thing about you. You can blurt it all out!. Why did i say the best set of classmates?. Because, they’re all equal to one another. Walang basagan ng trip ika nga. They’re the classmates that would care for you not just in the school. They can all be your bestfriends and friends. And, I think we all have the same quality. We all fear God.  In this section, you won’t be discriminated. They’ll make you feel welcome. It’s like having a new family and a new set of siblings. The teachers are also kind. But, sometimes, we can’t help to lose their temper. Because of our kakulitan and kaingayan. But, somehow, we still tyr to be nice to them. We still obey them.Ü. I love this section so much!. :).

Love you guys!

When they said that I’m going to live with my parents in the States…I felt the ‘mixed’ emotions..I was kind of sad…bec. I’m going to leave my loved ones and friends here…happy because…I’m going to live with my parents and cousins…I’ve prepared already…I’ve prepared my tears… and my lines for saying ‘goodbye’…then suddenly…my mom called…and she said…”I cannot get you by this time..I have to fix my American Visa..etc..”…still..’mixed’ emotions…sad..and happy..but by now..it’s the reciprocal..happy..bec. I won’t be able to leave my loved ones and friends…sad bec…I won’t be able to go and live with my parents abroad…;c..maybe God has a will and purpose for all of these..maybe I have something to accomplish here…something to discover…something to forget…something to remember…I may not have the aptitude to do all of those things…but at least..I know how to do them..Ü..I think it’s just how life goes..It’s true that life’s like a big wheel..you have to be down…sometimes..you have to go up…sometimes…you have to get flat and lose your air…but,then it will be filled again…with more air…just like life…everything has to be replaced…and,start all over again…to continue your journey…and enjoy the adventures…but,keep in mind..any journey and adventures has always their own obstacles..so..prepare yourself…to get hurt;enjoy and to learn a new lesson…and..you’ll go farther than you think and expected…

he is an inspiration in everything I do..he is my happiness..almost all of the things I do..depends on him..he is my one and only..he is always in my dreams..he always makes me happy…and I pay back him all of the happiness he always give..i know i can never give him the love he deserve..but i’ll always give him the love that my heart can pour out…it’s just sad to say..that I have to go…and live my life…without him by my side..i can’t do that..but I have to…cause if I dont,he’s the one who’s gonna be put the blame on..and I don’t want that to happen..so I have to suffer..but,well then,I’d be gald to suffer for him…agony’s not a problem for someone I love…and that’s him..I love him so much…that no adjective could ever explain and describe…he’s going to be the first and last…he’s going to be forever…and ever…until my last breath…it’s his name I’m going to utter…always and forever…he’ll be mine..and I’ll be him forever..and ever…

i thought it was gonna be for a lifetime…and i thought wrong…it was just a vision of mine…pretending he’ll be forever mine…i have loved him,set him free and fell for him again…but every human has their own limitations…so let him go…i let others to own him…so,here i am…crying in pain and breaking in silence…i retend to be happy for them to now i’m okay…but they don’t know,every night,i cry…dreaming of him and wondering why…but i can’t take it anymore…i have to end this bec. i’m really the one who started it…i don’t want this to happen again…but i think it will,again…but, hope not that painful…i’ve gone crazy for him…forgotten that i have homeworks to do,quizzes that have to review for and a home to go to…i do  not have any direction when i fell for him…he made it hard for me to forget him…it’ll took a long time…i do not know how it happened…i don’t even understand if its love of crush?..but,among the guys i have met,he’s the only one that made me write those silly hearts on the paper…couldn’t even realize,that i’m not paying attention at the class because i was busy,daydreaming about him…and now,it’s over…really over…don’t want to be thast way again…enough is enough…the pain i had?..i know it has a cure…my Jesus…He will heal it at the right time…i know that…i’m just waiting for that day..but for now,i’l just settle down…and be happy…God bless…

We all know that Sam Concepcion is a great performer.And he really has a great voice.He’s charm captured almost all of the girls,and,even the boys!He really is a great role model for youths.Sam Concepcion grew almost in theater.Almost half of his life is in the theater.Yesterday,last October 18,2008,I witnessed his concert.Yes!I’m also there!He’s really great and superb!I feel like,i’m watching Michael Jackson,Gary Valenciano,Chris Brown,Ne-Yo and Justin Timerlake all in one peson!That’s really great!And in that event,I saw the real Sam Concepcion.A hilarious,religious,God-fearing,intelligent and talented man.And also,let’s not exclute,he’s being handsome!I could really tell that he’s the best!He’s a blessing to others.And he’ll always be.He’s one of the Filipinos we should be proud of.He’s the Philippines’ pride and God’s gift to our country.I hope,someday and somewhere,I’ll see you again.And to all of the Samsters out there!I love you guys!Let’s all support Sam Concepcion in his journey!I’ll always be a samster at heart Sam!For us,you’re the best!You really are!God Bless you!

i know,..you can’t just see the real me! you can’t just see positive things about me…and even if i try to do so…it became a big FAILURE!i don’t want to be plastic!!what ami ?a tupperware?..duh!.i’ll be true…i don’t want to make friends like you..!or even to get close to you!everytime i saw you,you’ll just look at me with one eyebrow up!duh!i hate it!i just can’t say something GOOD about you!really hate it!and now,you’re one of the members in the group!wow!what a co-incidence!!!…as in!..it really makes me feel that i don’t belong…thanks that, my family, friends and GOD can accept me the way iam…whew!GOD BLESS TO YOU!..TO WHERE YOU ARE..->naks..nosebleed!..

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Forget his name

Forget his face

Forget his kiss

His warm embrace

Forget the love that you once knew

Remember he has someone new

Forget him when they played your song

Remember when you cried all night long

Forget how close you once were

Remember he has chosen her

Forget how you memorized his walk

Forget the way he used to talk

Forget the things he used to say

Remember he has gone away

Forget his laugh forget his grin

Forget the dimples on his chin

Forget the way he held you tight

Remember he’s with her tonight

Forget the time that went so fast

Forget the love that moved, it’s past

Forget he said he’ll leave you never

Remember he’s gone forever