dorcas’s Blog

i thought it was gonna be for a lifetime…and i thought wrong…it was just a vision of mine…pretending he’ll be forever mine…i have loved him,set him free and fell for him again…but every human has their own limitations…so let him go…i let others to own him…so,here i am…crying in pain and breaking in silence…i retend to be happy for them to now i’m okay…but they don’t know,every night,i cry…dreaming of him and wondering why…but i can’t take it anymore…i have to end this bec. i’m really the one who started it…i don’t want this to happen again…but i think it will,again…but, hope not that painful…i’ve gone crazy for him…forgotten that i have homeworks to do,quizzes that have to review for and a home to go to…i do  not have any direction when i fell for him…he made it hard for me to forget him…it’ll took a long time…i do not know how it happened…i don’t even understand if its love of crush?..but,among the guys i have met,he’s the only one that made me write those silly hearts on the paper…couldn’t even realize,that i’m not paying attention at the class because i was busy,daydreaming about him…and now,it’s over…really over…don’t want to be thast way again…enough is enough…the pain i had?..i know it has a cure…my Jesus…He will heal it at the right time…i know that…i’m just waiting for that day..but for now,i’l just settle down…and be happy…God bless…